one of those days
yesterday was one of those days. the kind where the little man and i just weren't in sync. usually, if one of us is having a bad/grumpy/whiny day, the one helps lift the other out of their funk. not yesterday. we were both in a funk. not a good combo. i was low on patience and ethan was just a little on the whiny/grumpy side (still haven't figured out why-- he's not teething, not sick,...maybe just coming off of an eventful weekend?). anyways, our day was a series of circles. he would be fussy and whiny, i would be low on patience and respond in a not-ideal-and-loving way, i would be grumpy and have a "why is he being like this? when will this day end?" pity party, then realize how silly this was (the pity parties got shorter as the day went on, thank goodness!), i would pray for wisdom and guidance (and patience), and then we would be ok again. for at least a few minutes.
it wasn't even mid-morning when i told the Lord, "ok, God. you know what i need today and you're going to have to be that for me."...cause i was about ready to call it a day and move on to the weekend!
HE IS (in other words, "I AM"). God is everything we need. in the midst of desperation and selfishness and sin, HE IS everything we need. in the midst of a fussy baby or a hard day or whatever situation we are facing, God is. i say this phrase often, as a reminder to myself-- "God, You meet ALL my expectations and You satisfy the deepest longings of my heart". since college, i have repeated those words over and over in numerous situations. it is a good reminder that things in this world (even sweet babies, amazing husbands, incredible friends) cannot satisfy me the way the Lord can. He created me to be satisfied in Him.
i won't say that our day was peachy. even last night, leading up to bedtime, ethan was still a tad on the emotional side, but don't you know we had some sweet moments despite both our funks? we played outside, we danced to music together with laughs and squeals to go along with our dance moves, God blessed my heart with a sweet time in His Word while ethan was napping, and the day ended with the blessing of community group friends surrounding my dining room table. on top of all that, my dear husband sent me beautiful flowers. he had no idea that yesterday was the day that i would need that encouragement, but God knew.
God is good. despite the seemingly "off" days that we are all bound to have. despite my constant lack and need of wisdom. i pray that in the "one of those days" to come, that i would be quick to run to the cross of Christ, confess my weakness, fill myself with His Truth (i.e. God's Word), and remember that He can satisfy the deepest longings of my heart and be everything i need. i know that He will.
it wasn't even mid-morning when i told the Lord, "ok, God. you know what i need today and you're going to have to be that for me."...cause i was about ready to call it a day and move on to the weekend!
HE IS (in other words, "I AM"). God is everything we need. in the midst of desperation and selfishness and sin, HE IS everything we need. in the midst of a fussy baby or a hard day or whatever situation we are facing, God is. i say this phrase often, as a reminder to myself-- "God, You meet ALL my expectations and You satisfy the deepest longings of my heart". since college, i have repeated those words over and over in numerous situations. it is a good reminder that things in this world (even sweet babies, amazing husbands, incredible friends) cannot satisfy me the way the Lord can. He created me to be satisfied in Him.
i won't say that our day was peachy. even last night, leading up to bedtime, ethan was still a tad on the emotional side, but don't you know we had some sweet moments despite both our funks? we played outside, we danced to music together with laughs and squeals to go along with our dance moves, God blessed my heart with a sweet time in His Word while ethan was napping, and the day ended with the blessing of community group friends surrounding my dining room table. on top of all that, my dear husband sent me beautiful flowers. he had no idea that yesterday was the day that i would need that encouragement, but God knew.
God is good. despite the seemingly "off" days that we are all bound to have. despite my constant lack and need of wisdom. i pray that in the "one of those days" to come, that i would be quick to run to the cross of Christ, confess my weakness, fill myself with His Truth (i.e. God's Word), and remember that He can satisfy the deepest longings of my heart and be everything i need. i know that He will.
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